So I quit my job a couple of months ago and currently looking for work (because funds aren't infinite but at least I can go about quitting without an immediate fall back) and that means having time to think.
Firstly the fact that the chances my next job won't just be another case where I work myself into exhaustion each day for what are essentially the scraps compared to what others would get for substantially less effort until I get sick of that job too. Rinse and repeat until what is likely premature death from stress.
Having quit I have had more time to exercise but when most people seem happy long term, I don't feel that way because I'm still ugly. Thin and ugly is no different from over weight and ugly. Doesn't even really change my options regarding other things like job prospects or being able to run a marathon (or half of one).
That's just me in a nut shell. Never fitting in even with what one might call the other oddballs. Not good looking enough for the job because why bother getting someone in who might actually do the job well.
Would it make a difference if I gained some additional skills? Would it matter if I rotted on the street like a bum getting free money?
The end result is that I probably won't find happiness wherever I go and whatever I do. I've learned to live with it and wait for the inevitable doom that Earth is facing.
