i watched hedwig again last night and every time i am just not high enough to fully grasp the meaning behind that movie. i know something is there but i have not got the foggiest clue and frankly i am puzzled. then i got on this crazy meaning thing and started thinking. then i decided to post this and then started thinking about why i am posting this. just trying to connect the dots. maybe for you maybe for me. i do not know right now. i started guessing about the relevance about posting and thought that there must be some sort of validation in posting things on the internet. everyone hopes atleast someone else is going to see the fruits of their labor. even in passing negative judgement someone is atleast admitting to the sexistence of whatever they are passing judgement on. and so i thought am i writing this so that others know i exist, am i seeking validation from others over one of the world's newest addictions. or am i posting to prove to myself that i exist, so that some later me can read and validate himself at some predestined later date? like i said earlier, i do not know what is going on and am quite far from an explanation.