yippee!!! i had a great time at work today!!! it actually was a fairly normal day until about an hour and a half before i was sposed to go home... it seems that a couple of months ago while i was doing a case i offended a surgeon... how? well i was reading a magazine and the tech in my room asked me if i... Read More
okay, so i've been feeling really fucked up lately, it's gotta be my yearly depression coming on or something! LOL! but i was all by my lonesome last nite just thinking about shit... and when i woke up this morning i knew i had to do something on my day off to keep me from dying of boredome!!! so i thought what the hell, it's... Read More
okay, this emotional thing is coming up on me like a freight train... so much shit is just adding up... like i said, i always get a little moody this time of year, but there's more to it than that... i've been in this town for a little over a year now and i moved in with my gf... she's going to school, and i'm working and paying the bills... work is really screwed up, i guess 'cause i'm good at what i do, i always get a little bit more on my plate than other shitty people, so alot of times i'm not real happy with my job... over the last 5 years i've left all my friends behind, and i have absolutely no friends of my own in this town, the people that consider themselves to be my friends are actually my gf's friends or shared friends, and that's not good, i need to meet some peoples that are just my friends, or my friends first, and people i can hang out with without her, she's always with me, and she lives here and it's getting to be too much... she's a great girl, and a really good person, but i'm not!! lol! i like to say "fuck"!! and i laugh at shit that's funny!! and now where i'm in my "mood", she's trying even harder to "make me happy" and i can't fucking take it!!! she smothers me! most of the time she's caught up in her school shit, it's the only thing she knows anything about, she's so naive and has no concept of what the real world is like... and now when i could really handle a few days without her around me, she decides she needs to spend even more time with me, she even asked me to go with her to visit MY brother!! i justed wanted to yell at her and tell her if i was going to visit him it would be ALONE!!!! he's MY best friend!!!! another thing is that i can't find any place to paint... i've manage to do one new piece in the last 6 months and i hate it, the place where i live is not too tolerant of me making a mess... so that's a BIG problem for me!!! am i being too selfish??? what the fuck is my problem???
ummm? what the fuck's up??? the world is fucking insane and i'm feeling really fucking small right now... it's just so easy to ignore shit when you want to... i guess i should causse i'm not gonna change anything... why am i so pissed!!! i should be happy, but i just can't seem to get it that way... oh well it's good for painting when... Read More
kk, i zapped a few of the pieces that i have around the apartment, and i'll try to scan a few i have as conventional photo's... some of the shit i've actually sold... lol