imasailorgirl

Tonight we take the kids up to the sitters and head up to New York. I'm really excited and nervous... It's all depending on tonight/tomorrow now.

I'm trying to remember that any stress I'm feeling right now it based in that... butI feel like it's coming at me from every side. So there is this girl I'm friends with. I've been in love with her for years, and I know it just wouldn't work. So we're "just friends", we're "like family". Well, she got in touch with a guy she dated like 15 years ago and they're kind of seeing eachother again, (though she lives in Philly and he in California). He came out visiting this past week and we got to meet him. ... I actually like him. Just from what he've seen of him, he seems really cool and I would love to see them together, (if I can't "have her"... I'd like someone who is going to take care of her to be wither her...). We'll we've chatted a little on myspace since I met him. and I said something that he misunderstood... I explained myself, but now I'm all stressed and upset.

ANYway...I feel like there are "important" things weighing on me... but there really aren't. I'm alive and breathing with enough food not to stop doing the above... I have what I NEED... the rest is superfluous.