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And I've been fighting with my kids the past two days... I'm just going to talk to the walls from now on since they seem to react more when I talk. I know every parent has problems like this, I'm not trying to say "see how bad it is" or anything... but dealing with two people who are sure they can ignore me becasue what I'm saying or telling them to do it "boring"... I'm loosing my mind! I told them to get ready to go to grandma's and they bitched and complained... then sat down infront of the TV. So I canceled that, Oh... they cried about that! But I told them, if you want to go somewhere, get ready when I tell you to!

And the reason we needed to go there was to return the car we've been borrowing for the past couple months.

So my dinner plans are gone, I'm having a hard time being and staying online because of the power and my iffy connection, (I write these long blogs on an outlook "new message", then transfer it to my update page when I'm done), I'm having a hard time writing my script and of course the power being iffy hurts that too. Oh I could just SCREAM today!!!

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Ok... thinking positive... ummmm
Well I AM getting work done on the script, even if it is sometimes hard and I sometimes don't want to... And it may not becoming out the way that I wanted to, but the movie isn't about me it's about the character. It will turn out how ever it does. But if I keep going it WILL get done.

I have enough to smoke and relax when I get to stressed.
And it's going to be getting warmer soon, (I hope). So, without a car, I might start walking more which will help me slim down.
I think tonight or tomorrow I'm going to sit down and make my list of things I want to do over the next 4+ years. Which will also help me figure out what I want to do in the next 7 months I'm in Philly.
Even though there are things about my life I'm still not happy with, (day to day bitching kind of stuff), all in all I'm happier with my life then I've ever been. I am looking forward to my future instead of mourning my past, (as much). (Hey, I'm still woring on it!) Hell, I wish I knew half the shit I know now, 10 years ago... but then where would I be now? I wouldn't change a thing... Just in case... And the things I'd consider changing are, in the grand scheme small enough that it's not worth the effort to regret them, so I don't.

hmmmmm... I feel a lot better...
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Here's another snippet of the movie:
Seymour goes to walk out.
STONER
Looks like youve had a hard day.
SEYMOUR PECKER
You have no idea.
The guy offers a filter-less cigarette from out of a cigarette holder.
STONER
Want one?
SEYMOUR PECKER
Normally Id say no but...
He takes the cigarette and the guy lights is for him. They smoke for a while. After a few minutes...
SEYMOUR PECKER (contd)
I... Ummm, what I saying? Oh yeah. I feel kind of funny. What did you do to this cigarette?
Seymour continues to smoke.
STONER
What do you mean what did I do to it? Its a joint. I didnt do anything but roll it.
Seymour pauses.
SEYMOUR PECKER
You mean this is...
He starts giggling. He takes another draw and hands it back, and there is almost nothing left of it.
SEYMOUR PECKER (contd)
I cant smoke this.
Seymour walks our of the bathroom. The stoner shrugs his shoulders and starts smoking them both.

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ImaSailorGirl Q & A

From: tilpacer
Q: When did you know that you were bisexual?
A: I was about 17. I had a crush on a girl I went to school with, Erika. She ended up dating one of my friends.

From: tilpacer
What do you look for in a potential lover?
A: I don't look for potential lovers. Most of the lovers I've had over the past 10 years, I have known for at least 2-10 years. When I do find the very rare, NEW lover, it has to do with a lot of things; looks, personality, and chemistry... and timing. I admit, it tends to be pretty superficial, but I have never had a "fling" be more then just that... So I see no reason to pretend it is more... In the past 3 years I have only found 1person to have a fling with... because I also don't pursue them... I happened to be in Key West alone, he invited me to go with him and a friend to the beach. I said yes. All we did was drink some beers and hang out under the stars. We did flirt, but that was about it. Then, when I moved to Key West 2 months later, I looked him up. He was hot, and sweet to me... for the most part. Then I got bored... and I stopped going out with him.

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