i keep being annoyed because there aren't very many new journal posts to read. then i realized that i'm not posting either, so i'm posting.
i've been badly affected by the death of one of my cats. it sounds stupid to people who aren't in to cats but my best healthy relationships are with my cats. kind of sad really. it was a yucky and painful illness that persephone had and i finally had her euthanized a little over a week ago. so far my other two cats haven't gotten sick and i'm grateful for that like you wouldn't believe. i have been upset and occasionally wondering if putting her down was the right thing... maybe she would have turned the corner the next day or if i could have come up with some more money she could have had longer treatment. i think she would have died anyway and it would have just been a longer period of awful suffering for her. so.. i miss her like a mother fucker and i keep crying when i pull up and she isn't hanging on the screen door waiting for me, but i spend time with the other cats and i feel better. i have to go pick up her ashes tomorrow, i plan to set aside time for being an emotional wreck.
i plan to finally get my ass back in school next term. pray for me.. i'm sort of not really looking forward to it. gonna start back with just a couple of classes at a time so i won't burn out. yay for that.
that's all. how emo.
i've been badly affected by the death of one of my cats. it sounds stupid to people who aren't in to cats but my best healthy relationships are with my cats. kind of sad really. it was a yucky and painful illness that persephone had and i finally had her euthanized a little over a week ago. so far my other two cats haven't gotten sick and i'm grateful for that like you wouldn't believe. i have been upset and occasionally wondering if putting her down was the right thing... maybe she would have turned the corner the next day or if i could have come up with some more money she could have had longer treatment. i think she would have died anyway and it would have just been a longer period of awful suffering for her. so.. i miss her like a mother fucker and i keep crying when i pull up and she isn't hanging on the screen door waiting for me, but i spend time with the other cats and i feel better. i have to go pick up her ashes tomorrow, i plan to set aside time for being an emotional wreck.
i plan to finally get my ass back in school next term. pray for me.. i'm sort of not really looking forward to it. gonna start back with just a couple of classes at a time so i won't burn out. yay for that.
that's all. how emo.
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But I just think we all worry so much about how we're going to pay bills etc but waste our lives doing something we don't want.
If the worst comes to the worst I could always join a monestry.
I mean I could get hit by a bus tommorow and would I be worried about bills then?
No, I'd be kicking myself for wasting my life
As for British slang, thanks for the help. Now that you put it in perspective it does make sense. Now if someone could tell me where a good pub in London is I would REALLY like that.