Wow. Some seriously major shit dropped into my lap straight out of the clear blue sky this afternoon. In the next few days, I have a big decision to make. It makes all the other anxieties and various freakouts of the past few days, including the prospect of being kind of crippled for life, seem like small potatoes.
But you know what? I passed it on to a higher up, asking her what I should do. And I'm going to abide by her opinion. If she says go for it, the next 10 days of my life are gonna be some of the most stressful I can currently imagine, with the next 50 days after that coming in close second. But then... the clouds will lift, and I will be in better shape than ever before. So wow.
It's crazy, the way I feel right now. Calm and yet so tightly wound up that I can't eat a bite and have been chain smoking for two hours. But you know what? In the end, everything is gonna be just fine.
When did I become such a tranquil human? My god. I'm all Zen-ed out over here, it's wild.
But you know what? I passed it on to a higher up, asking her what I should do. And I'm going to abide by her opinion. If she says go for it, the next 10 days of my life are gonna be some of the most stressful I can currently imagine, with the next 50 days after that coming in close second. But then... the clouds will lift, and I will be in better shape than ever before. So wow.
It's crazy, the way I feel right now. Calm and yet so tightly wound up that I can't eat a bite and have been chain smoking for two hours. But you know what? In the end, everything is gonna be just fine.
When did I become such a tranquil human? My god. I'm all Zen-ed out over here, it's wild.
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talk to me, tell me what's going on! this journal is too enigmatic for me to get a handle on what you're referring to, and i'm worried about you...