imaginaryrobot

I think about what I have forgotten
The strangest things in life are what I have not seen
Time is impenetrable, yet I feel I waste away
The times which are important have faded so fast

It is safe to say that today could be my last
But tomorrow could solve all of the questions of my past
And when my heart breaks and I think about how much I've grown
The memories will blend with fiction and only my heart will know

When self loathing has reached its peak at noon
And time is creeping by while the world is busy
In desperation I seek to find the meaning of my existence
And why I am utterly doomed to over analyze my feelings

Time and time again I see the wrong one looking back
A mirror of self expression opposite from my exposure
In a world without meaning my life is just a speck
This sea of nonexistence is taking its toll

My thoughts must make me something of which i don't know
Insomnious tendencies make my dreams feel real
And the room around my pillow is as haunting as what is unknown
The time of which I dream is nothing close to what is now

I have been tested and failed but in my mind I have succeeded
Every turn has been the right path even if they can't see it
What was right may turn to be wrong but I have lived and loved
Emotions are not perception and what is seen is not always real

My thoughts keep me alone, destined to stay awake and afraid
I see that I again have forgotten everything that would last
What I have learned is nothing and my mistakes are inevitable
Today is just another day and a step closer to the past