I had a pretty weird day yesterday. First, I ended up in deep conversation with my best friend about why I keep everyone at arm's length, coming to the conclusion that I am afraid of getting hurt, but more to the point I am afraid of what I might do if I do get hurt again as I have in the past. Because I'm done from pretty self-destructive things in the past when I'm been really hurt.
So still having that roll around in my head I had an eye doctor appointment. Among other things they gave me eye drops to dilate my eyes and look at my retinas, isn't that a lot of fun? When I get done with that and am trying to drive myself home I find out that my roommate has been trying to get ahold of me for the past hour, but because of the drops I can't focus on anything closer than about 20 feet, so I can't read his texts. I call him up and find out that he stumbled on free Cubs tickets at work, so I make a quick stop home then start heading down to Wrigley.
Of course I can't read any of the signs at the CTA station, so I'm just following the packs of people in Cubs gear. They probably thought I was stoned out of my mind, lol. The game was pretty fun, except that it was 40 degrees and windy so we were freezing, and the Cubs lost. But the seats were great.
So we made our way home, it was after midnight. I checked my computer quick before going to bed (my eyes were mostly back to normal by then) and I had an email from a girl that I dated way back in high school, seriously we broke up in 1995. I hadn't heard from her in over 10 years but she tracked me down to send me a nastygram about how I had treated her 13 years ago!
Now, I will readily admit that I was an idiot back then, and I know I said and did things that hurt her. It wasn't at all intentional, but I was completely clueless and very self-absorbed. But doesn't she have anything better to do with herself than still be angry at me 13 years later?!?
So still having that roll around in my head I had an eye doctor appointment. Among other things they gave me eye drops to dilate my eyes and look at my retinas, isn't that a lot of fun? When I get done with that and am trying to drive myself home I find out that my roommate has been trying to get ahold of me for the past hour, but because of the drops I can't focus on anything closer than about 20 feet, so I can't read his texts. I call him up and find out that he stumbled on free Cubs tickets at work, so I make a quick stop home then start heading down to Wrigley.
Of course I can't read any of the signs at the CTA station, so I'm just following the packs of people in Cubs gear. They probably thought I was stoned out of my mind, lol. The game was pretty fun, except that it was 40 degrees and windy so we were freezing, and the Cubs lost. But the seats were great.
So we made our way home, it was after midnight. I checked my computer quick before going to bed (my eyes were mostly back to normal by then) and I had an email from a girl that I dated way back in high school, seriously we broke up in 1995. I hadn't heard from her in over 10 years but she tracked me down to send me a nastygram about how I had treated her 13 years ago!
Now, I will readily admit that I was an idiot back then, and I know I said and did things that hurt her. It wasn't at all intentional, but I was completely clueless and very self-absorbed. But doesn't she have anything better to do with herself than still be angry at me 13 years later?!?
claudette:
Thanks sweetie 