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I'm going to NOLA to see Parikhan belly dance at the Hookah Cafe on Frenchmen! WooHOO!!! Vandilous and I will be just hanging out after that I guess. We'll also be around Saturday during the day! I'm so happy!!



I"ve been having nightmares the last couple of nights...in one of them I was standing there talking to vandilous and there was this canopy over his head...all of the sudden this blood spot appears and it starts getting bigger and bigger..like something is up there bleeding to death...and the blood starts to drip and I realize it is after him so I tell him to run...and we can glide like incredibly fast, so we're gliding..and just when I thought to myself "this is a dream, so we can glide as fast as we want" I started to slow down..I even stopped..I saw Vanny glide off without me, so I broke into a labored run..but I could feel this thing getting closer and closer behind me...and then it was there..right behind me..so close I could feel it's presense and when I woke up my whole body was tingly...very scary...

And then last night....I dreamed I was the father of this psychotic little girl and I had to lock her up in a dark house...I would bring her toys and food, but I couldn't let her out because she was evil...then I became the little girl, only grown up, and I had killed a bunch of people, including my mother, so I had been placed in a mental hospital...and my father (who I had been previously) had to inject me with something to put me to sleep..permanently! I was screaming..no daddy!!..please don't!!!...tears streaming down my face and the most incredible fear I had ever felt of knowing death had finally come and there was nothing I could do about it..there were nurses and doctors surrounding us, but no one tried to stop him...and then I woke up....it was horribly traumatic