ilovemikehunt

wow, i just spent like an hour and a half on the fone with my mom. it's hard for me to drop my guard, but i'm a pretty good hypnotist with lots of insight...
sometimes it takes me awhile to get the person in the palm of my hand; that's just because i get caught up in my militance and forget to change my approach. once i switch it up tho... it's over with.

i'm supposed to go spin @ lily's tonight.. i don't think i'm going to go; i really don't feel like it. i'll just continue to sit here reading about synanon, listening to guru's sexy voice (mmm...jazzmatazz,) and wishing i didn't have to be celibate. i mean, i have a cuddle buddy, shouldn't that be enough? no. it's not... he's very distant. i just want to be able to connect to someone that i'm totally feeling.. you know? i'm starting to think my person is not coming. where's my "supa love" damnit? funny that this is the song that i just incidentally flipped on..
i think i'm going to start writing down what i'm looking for... i'll make a list; it'll be a long one. perhaps i need to meditate on it. maybe the universe will send me what i need. i mean, it's been fucking long enough... i've been waiting for the past year and a half (and that's just sexually.)
i simply refuse to believe that my standards are too high.