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Tuesday Jul 20, 2010

Jul 20, 2010
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"im standing on the edge of inability"


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I'm in a state of despair
Nothing seems to fit my mind
And although I can't be there
I still know that there's a place for someone just like me

Will I ever wake up?
Wake up to see the box I'm in
Will I ever stand up?

I'm standing on the edge of inability
And though I'm trying it still penetrates my body
All these demons that I carry deep inside
The changing faces, forces me to leave the traces
Of the stranger things that are growing in my mind

Oh, I know that I have
Done this once or twice before
The names are still a blur
I'm arrogantly close to falling of the edge

I know, I'm not insane
Though my head hurts on the inside
The images disturb me
I know, I'm not insane, I'm not what they call me

They're no good, still surrounding me
Forcing my actions upon me

The blood just paints my world
They're no good, still surrounding me
Forcing my actions upon me
They're forcing my actions upon my deathbox

And though I'm trying it still penetrates my body
All these demons that I carry deep inside
The changing faces forces me to leave the traces
Of the stranger things that are growing in my mind

Now will I ever wake up?
Wake up to see the box I'm in
Will I ever stand up?

I'm standing on the edge of inability
Now is this a failure
My project kill is right awake
I'm all burned out from pressure

My thoughts have brought me to my knees
Awake in pain
They're no good still surrounding me
Forcing my actions upon me

The blood just paints my world
They're no good still surrounding me
Forcing my actions upon me
They're forcing my actions upon my deathbox



just thought i would share this band i had found MANY MANY years ago, just getting back into... love this song and its words... insanity!

soooo... just so this isnt some sort of useless blog, i figure ill use this space to talk about my tattoo desires...

number one, my next one hopefully soon. left ribs to stomach will be a phoenix rising. i like to think that i have or am successfully burned/burning all the negative of my past, creating myself anew and stronger, better. hence the phoenix. trying to make it a slightly broken piece, where much of the phoenix itself wont be connected, to make it more like i am constantly building this new me, and that i continue to define myself on a daily basis. not easy to describe to an artist, and as picky as i am, probably going to be awhile till i find one i like.

number two. inside upper right arm. a hawk. simple, i know. but the hawk symbolizes the dawn, the start of a fresh day. i tend to believe that everyday is a new dawn, a new start. everyday is fresh and its never too late to start yourself over.

number three. the back piece. even though i found this on one of my favorite shirts, its a mixed tribal with a skeleton holding his hands up, and looking to the sky screaming. he has wings, not large and not full, but wings nevertheless. to me, its like the deepest parts of my soul fighting and screaming to come out, and the wings meaning that it is starting to. i want it on my back, cuz itll show that many of these aspects of my past are where they should be, in my past. behind me. but i will never forget them, i will always hear their screams and feel their affects on me.
this shirt. metal mulisha

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