illuminatus

so, the past few days this is how i felt:


... but today, this is how i feel:


i have spent a lot of time in thought, trying to figure out how i should handle all the drama i was facing. i decided my best course of action in how to end it, was to get rid of all of it. i dropped 200 on car parts, to fix that tiny drama. i told one girl that there was nothing between us, and to drop it all, told another that i have been tired of dealing with her boyfriend problems, and told another that i just plain out cant talk to them. after some somewhat expected lack of understanding and some unexpected wrongful translation of past words, all has been handled. one day... thats all it take to end all the weight on me. one fucking day.

and now today... the sun has never been brighter, the slight rain, has never felt so relieving, school have never been so fun.... everything, is amazing. im smiling much more, even being here alone in my house, just randomly smiling.

this day of pure perfection... or driving and walking around with the greatest smile, making everyone around me smile and laugh, feeling lighter than ever... has shown me i have made the right decisions. even the hard ones, the ones that tore me apart to do... all is worth it.

not only am i recently reborn, but i am lifted as well. nothing about my past or my present can weigh me down at this moment. i can finally, honestly say... life is good, and i am finally happy!