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I often have the urge to bare my soul here and right now I very much need to. But I can't bring myself to do it. I can't let go long enough. I don't trust pouring my heart out here, anywhere or to anyone anymore. It's been a huge set back in my relationships as of late. Somewhere along the way I stopped feeling like my existence mattered at all. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing or even a neutral. Although painful at times Ive been proactivly trying to be a better person, so maybe things will change and I'll feel more open and less fragile and post things here with my scars shining.

Until then here's another picture. Its from a lovely trip up the coast last month as is the one at the top, same day two diff beaches.