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Tuesday Aug 09, 2005

Aug 8, 2005
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I am trying to break youre heart......

But beforeI do:
Irina Forever
1.I wish I didnt spend my days trying to make people believe Im special.
2.I wish I felt my work was paying off.
3.I wish I had been more mature at 19.
4. This is how it usually goes: When I first meet you I dont say much because Im watching you. I learn you and then I say things to make you interested in me. You fall for me. I fall for you. You eventually realize that Im not who you thought I was. Im too quiet. Im no longer interesting. You say Ive changed. I say I haven't. We decide to end it. I wish this didnt happen every time.
5.I wish I didnt constantly question everything Im doing.
6.I wish I didnt feel I needed others approval.
7.I wish I read more.
8.I wish I wasnt so needy.
9.I wish Ms. Zerkin would take time to read my manuscript.
10. I wish I could be content with a normal life.

AND NOW

On Aug. 13 I will have been on SG for a year. This also means that my subscription will be ending. Ive chosen not to renew. Im just too busy these days and it seems you are too. You dont have to miss me if you dont want to. You know where I am.

.... And still I would be lying if I said it wasnt easy.

one more thing. My friend Amanda had her record release show this past friday. Check out this website. I'm so proud of her.
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brookelynne:
if I'm ever old and gray.
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brookelynne:
Did you know that they have popsicles at the corner store by my house?-twin pops.
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