Oh my God it's its Bob and David! (Random thoughts)
First off I want ot thank you for the comments of my last post. I dont know if it shows but I m always a little awkward about doing stuff like that. Also I had to remind an awful lot of you to vote. I hope you dont act like that on the second. (BTW: I had to cut out A LOT of stuff. I tied to keep it short. I swear I did.)
Most of the teens I know are more ignorant than they think. (even the smart ones.)
Most of the 20 somethings I know are more lost than they think
Most of the 30 somethings i know are more scared than their willing to admit
Most of the 40 somethings I know are more complacent than they should be
Most of the 50 somethings I know have admitted that that its too late and just settled.
Age doesnt matter only the young can say that. Edwidge Danticat Breath, Eyes, Memory
I thought my if sex were a party comment in my last random thoughts was damned funny, I was a little let down that No One commented on it. Everyone was all mad at the GQ guy.
The last time I saw my older brother (not the one in my pics) was in a courtroom last March. This had also been the first time I had seen him in two years. I had to talk to him from across the benches that separated us. He couldnt hug me because of his shackles. My mother, grandmother and one of my aunts was with me too. Do you know what it feels like to have your mother lean on you in stead of the other way around?
On the 2003 album Christmas Calling Fiona Apple does a shitty version of Frosty the Snowman. I cant tell you how much it pains me to say that.
Why are you here. Your not even old enough to know how bad life rally is. Obviously doctor. youve never been a 13 year old girl. Remember in the Virgin Suicides when the girls were trying to communicate with the boys and they had to do it though records? That moment was especially emotional for me. (Sort of reminds me of a relationship Im in right now.) I wan to write a song that people communicate with other people through. Actually I already have. If only you could hear it. I would put up the Tower Records's link again but that would be shameless. Hee Hee.
For the record:
Im not really concerned with driving a Bentley
Im more concerned with finally owning some pants that fit me.
No more had me downs. Dressing like a clown
I can help my family out. Im the bread winner now
Have you ever realized how hard it is to tell a person why you like them? They make you smile. Theyre smart. They give good advice. Good reasons but arent they a little selfish? To like a person for what they can do for you? i mulled this over for a while and I realized that its because they make you want to make them laugh. They make you want to be nothing but good to them. They make you want to be a better person. They make you want to give them something a little extra. That little extra that no else might get. so... um... there you have it. Thank you very much.
Im going to type the next thing that pops in my head: Karate Exposition.
part of loving is putting your self at risk... correct?
in order to build a relationship with anyone, (this encompasses all aspects of relationships, from work too the big M) you have to trust them. trust must be built a little at a time by opening yourself up too another through communication and risk taking. its an exchange of emotion that involves potential losses and gains that creates trust between two people.
with that said... if one person is unwilling to give anything in that exchange than there is no transaction occurring and there for no trust being accrued. If there is a failed transaction there is also a withdraw taken from that trust between two people and there is less than their was before. Its a simple concept. Why doesnt anyone get it? grayce
Just when I thought you couldnt be anymore beautiful to me. (goes to closet. Puts on hat. Tips it towards Cincinnati.) Please dont give up on us. The man you deserve isnt through being created yet. It takes a little extra time to mold someone to mach a person of your caliber.
Real American Hero's
man: Hot Diggady Damn shes fine!: can I get your number?
woman: how do I tell him Im not interested without telling him Im not interested. I know: I'm married!
man: OK. I know she lying. how do I tell her that I know shes lying and still let her know that all I want to do is fuck: it's ok baby, I am too!
And there you have it.
Panthers has a really great album out.
I have so many thoughts that deserve to be said
but then I get scared and they get stuck in my head
sometimes I get tired and wonder if I should be me
cause the only people that can see me... cant see me
"I wish my arms were big enough to hug you all at the same time. Maybe I'm selfish."
First off I want ot thank you for the comments of my last post. I dont know if it shows but I m always a little awkward about doing stuff like that. Also I had to remind an awful lot of you to vote. I hope you dont act like that on the second. (BTW: I had to cut out A LOT of stuff. I tied to keep it short. I swear I did.)
Most of the teens I know are more ignorant than they think. (even the smart ones.)
Most of the 20 somethings I know are more lost than they think
Most of the 30 somethings i know are more scared than their willing to admit
Most of the 40 somethings I know are more complacent than they should be
Most of the 50 somethings I know have admitted that that its too late and just settled.
Age doesnt matter only the young can say that. Edwidge Danticat Breath, Eyes, Memory
I thought my if sex were a party comment in my last random thoughts was damned funny, I was a little let down that No One commented on it. Everyone was all mad at the GQ guy.
The last time I saw my older brother (not the one in my pics) was in a courtroom last March. This had also been the first time I had seen him in two years. I had to talk to him from across the benches that separated us. He couldnt hug me because of his shackles. My mother, grandmother and one of my aunts was with me too. Do you know what it feels like to have your mother lean on you in stead of the other way around?
On the 2003 album Christmas Calling Fiona Apple does a shitty version of Frosty the Snowman. I cant tell you how much it pains me to say that.
Why are you here. Your not even old enough to know how bad life rally is. Obviously doctor. youve never been a 13 year old girl. Remember in the Virgin Suicides when the girls were trying to communicate with the boys and they had to do it though records? That moment was especially emotional for me. (Sort of reminds me of a relationship Im in right now.) I wan to write a song that people communicate with other people through. Actually I already have. If only you could hear it. I would put up the Tower Records's link again but that would be shameless. Hee Hee.
For the record:
Im not really concerned with driving a Bentley
Im more concerned with finally owning some pants that fit me.
No more had me downs. Dressing like a clown
I can help my family out. Im the bread winner now
Have you ever realized how hard it is to tell a person why you like them? They make you smile. Theyre smart. They give good advice. Good reasons but arent they a little selfish? To like a person for what they can do for you? i mulled this over for a while and I realized that its because they make you want to make them laugh. They make you want to be nothing but good to them. They make you want to be a better person. They make you want to give them something a little extra. That little extra that no else might get. so... um... there you have it. Thank you very much.
Im going to type the next thing that pops in my head: Karate Exposition.
part of loving is putting your self at risk... correct?
in order to build a relationship with anyone, (this encompasses all aspects of relationships, from work too the big M) you have to trust them. trust must be built a little at a time by opening yourself up too another through communication and risk taking. its an exchange of emotion that involves potential losses and gains that creates trust between two people.
with that said... if one person is unwilling to give anything in that exchange than there is no transaction occurring and there for no trust being accrued. If there is a failed transaction there is also a withdraw taken from that trust between two people and there is less than their was before. Its a simple concept. Why doesnt anyone get it? grayce
Just when I thought you couldnt be anymore beautiful to me. (goes to closet. Puts on hat. Tips it towards Cincinnati.) Please dont give up on us. The man you deserve isnt through being created yet. It takes a little extra time to mold someone to mach a person of your caliber.
Real American Hero's
man: Hot Diggady Damn shes fine!: can I get your number?
woman: how do I tell him Im not interested without telling him Im not interested. I know: I'm married!
man: OK. I know she lying. how do I tell her that I know shes lying and still let her know that all I want to do is fuck: it's ok baby, I am too!
And there you have it.
Panthers has a really great album out.
I have so many thoughts that deserve to be said
but then I get scared and they get stuck in my head
sometimes I get tired and wonder if I should be me
cause the only people that can see me... cant see me
"I wish my arms were big enough to hug you all at the same time. Maybe I'm selfish."
VIEW 20 of 20 COMMENTS
-"But you don't even know me"
-"I can tell"
-"Now how can you tell... look, let's just get some cof..."
-"No, really, thank you.. I need to help the next customer in line.."
-"Well ok... but here's my number if you change your mind.."
(looks for a pen... finds a receipt in his pocket... people getting impatient... me getting embarrassed...)
-a week later-
-"Hey.. you never called me..."
Saying you have a boyfriend alleviates all hope and conserves energy in one swoop.
On to the poetry (I'm really enjoying this, by the way... I hope you are too). I won't lie.. this is from the archives.
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Bubble heads like little globes scattered around this room
The dark ones hide in hair and hats, others shine like the moon
Terrarium, bio dome, making their own light and greens
Petals different shades of red, lapping like a breeze
Like a shutter, like a flash, or a cliff that could take you away
Its a sudden drop, a snapping towel, attentively to say
The least is yet to come in this atmosphere
The air is dark as the streets and the sentiments pouring from his beer
Screeching laughter is coming from a corner of a short skirt
Dangerously close to the crosswalk sign and a girl whos looking curt
Snobby coffee that makes it alright to have another cigarette
It all tastes thick, unhealthy and comforting cuz it hasnt killed me yet
I know theres a girl out there that is crossing my path soon
Shell have intense arms and eyes that only open after noon
So I can have my morning and my breakfast all alone
Just like I like it, then well ride our bikes, talk on the phone
Well trade jewelry and pieces of succulents rooting in water
Thank the energy in the stars well never have to have a daughter
Like us, like a crazy creamy filling wrapped in chiffon
Always waiting, just keeping busy until the next turn on
Shell look like tips of stars that trail off in a deep blue sea
Ill throw away all of my mirrors so I wont have to look at me
The air will feel and smell like music from a soulful man
Well procreate in ways that even he wont understand
Then the screen door and the fog blend into a color, looking like one
The blanket is warm except when I pull this string and it comes undone
Ants on a log, they make on tv with little kids, with little hands
I envy them, their simple tastes, that they dont understand
While my body is shaped like a vase I want to fill all the way up
Stems that stick together, ferns Id kiss back, bottom to top
And I see little bubbles, little bubbleheads without surprise
Better there, I guess, better there than back in my eyes
[Edited on Oct 28, 2004 7:10AM]