I'd make a proper blog post today, but I don't really have the energy at this point.
Karaoke night tonight. Sang a song before leaving because they were having a karaoke competition and I was too late to sign up and had to wait for them to finish to sing. I don't think Rise Against will entertain as much as Guns and Roses, but I'm not sure. Will have to think about it.
Saw her tonight. She was too tired to go...
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Really getting the fingering down on a lot of the songs that have been troubling me for a long time. Learned a bit of Monkey Wrench by Foo Fighters today. It's simpler than I had thought at first.
Karaoke tomorrow. Looking forward to it. Still haven't seen her more than in passing since Friday. Not looking forward to it, but I may have to ask...
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Today wasn't as bad as I had feared. Having a clear idea of what needed to be done and how to do it without any supervision from on high made for a good, productive, relaxing day of work. Does it make me weird if I actually find work relaxing so long as I can feel things getting done?
Haven't seen her since we talked on...
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Woke up today, managed to drag myself out of bed early and get the laundry to the washers. Have to pull it from the dryer soon. I was doing fine, and then all of the sudden I crash. Right in the middle of playing a game. I can't concentrate, I'm feeling like crying, and I have no idea why. Is it because I didn't take...
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In another episode of I hate my boss, turns out that one of the guys going to the board tomorrow needs his counseling packet done. By ten in the morning.
He told me it was done over and over last week.
Ugh.
Going to bed after I finish figuring out what I have and what I will need.
Low functioning today. Found out last night that she suffers from anxiety and depression as well, and happens to be on the same meds as me, but unlike me, it has negative side effects for her. I feel like the universe is laughing at me, showing me someone who I find attractive and has worse problems than I do. It triggers my reflex to help....
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It's ten. I start work at two tomorrow, though I get to go back to sleep after that brief bit of work and don't have anywhere to be until nine, which is an appointment, not work. Not too broken up about it.
My appetite has been weird today. Two muffins for breakfast and I wasn't hungry at lunch, but after I had some crackers and...
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Sleep did not help. I wasted several hours laying in bed in a partially asleep state before I finally got up and got breakfast. What it allowed opportunity for was my mind to wander, and in its wandering it ventured into visions or dreams, flashes of a woman's face. I feel like I have seen her before in my dreams, glimpses of a possible future...
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I've managed to be mostly positive for every day for several days now, but right now I am losing the battle and honestly feel like crying for no reason that I can tell. I keep telling myself that things are not hopeless, that I am not worthless, that I will not always be alone, but it feels hollow right now. I think I forgot my...
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Today was day two of resilience training as mandated by the Army. It wasn't that bad. Yesterday I was actually pretty happy all day. This morning it is taking a bit more effort to stay happy, but I am resolved to at least try. One thing I took away from the class is breaking down a problem into all the little problems involved in it,...
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Today was emotionally the opposite, to an extent, of yesterday. I started the day full of piss and vinegar and have ended feeling drained and on the verge of breaking down. Early wake up tomorrow. Going to bed now. G'night, folks.