i can't really ignore it anymore, the seritonin levels in my brain have dropped to a level where ive never been. so now i have to eat these pills, which makes me a hipocrite, cause i don't think kids should be put on medication for depression or add.
fuck. this is the worst ive ever felt in my entire life and I have no idea why. its been nye 2 weeks and it just gets worse. just want to lay in bed all day, no light/no movement. a little
would be nice.
ha, you know im not ALL doom and gloom. teehee
but i did stumble upon a copy of the first 'punk' thing i was ever given, an old copy of nofx 'ribbed' so i threw it in and had a flash back to the summer when i hacked aol and then was subsequently hounded on the phone and eventually banned by the 'head of security' he called himself. (this obviously doesn't pretain to AIM), this was back in the day when franklin avenue was still pretty and aol made you pay like 4 bucks and hour or somethin like that. that was the summer we stole 3 go carts and hauled ass down the access road outside of town at like 4 in the morning. i can't even remember how old i was. before things got complicated, and i started to think. bring on the summer.
Cozied up to the toilet
Face stuck to the floor
I met expectations that I was tryin to ignore
Job had such patience
I wonder, what's that like?
One hundred thousand million
But I hearThat's what you like
So I was thinkin
So these cities are sprouting
Like a spit in the eye
And this world isn't waiting
It's just passing me by
I just peak in the window
Lookin inside
The butcher's got a fork in your face
I'm standing alive
And I was singin
fuck. this is the worst ive ever felt in my entire life and I have no idea why. its been nye 2 weeks and it just gets worse. just want to lay in bed all day, no light/no movement. a little
would be nice.
ha, you know im not ALL doom and gloom. teehee
but i did stumble upon a copy of the first 'punk' thing i was ever given, an old copy of nofx 'ribbed' so i threw it in and had a flash back to the summer when i hacked aol and then was subsequently hounded on the phone and eventually banned by the 'head of security' he called himself. (this obviously doesn't pretain to AIM), this was back in the day when franklin avenue was still pretty and aol made you pay like 4 bucks and hour or somethin like that. that was the summer we stole 3 go carts and hauled ass down the access road outside of town at like 4 in the morning. i can't even remember how old i was. before things got complicated, and i started to think. bring on the summer.
Cozied up to the toilet
Face stuck to the floor
I met expectations that I was tryin to ignore
Job had such patience
I wonder, what's that like?
One hundred thousand million
But I hearThat's what you like
So I was thinkin
So these cities are sprouting
Like a spit in the eye
And this world isn't waiting
It's just passing me by
I just peak in the window
Lookin inside
The butcher's got a fork in your face
I'm standing alive
And I was singin
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Is this a lack of chemicals due to an excess of other more naughty chemicals, or some sort of actual defficiency? I'm actually beginning to get worried for the human race, as more and more and more orf the youngest of us seem to ned wierd chemicals to survive. maybe this is what happened to the dinasaurs. they all got sad and bummed out and din't think to sheter themselves from the giant flying rock.
-my apartment in Rhode island was utilities included and I abused that shit like nuts. unfortunately the thermostat was all locked up so it was often too hot in the winter, but I left all sorts of lights on and water running. I had christmas lights alllllll over that place and left em on basically 24/7. it rocked.
Dave