Today I went to James aka Peter Parker's today, with his lady type. On the way to his house, we were in a parking lot that reminded me exactly of a couple in TX. I would do anything to spend one more night with Robin. Going to wallmart at 3AM, or anything. I got a little choked up, but I was fine. I said something funny about myself and the girl laughed, a little. It was wonderful. I love hearing a girl laugh.
I helped him set up his video card to his cable tv. Now he can watch tv on his computer. He was quite giddy about it.
Earlier tonight I noticed it was windy and cool ourside, so I decided I wanted to go for a walk. I had to get myself together, even if only a little bit. It was a wonderful walk. I walked the same street I have my entire life. I thought about walking to the busstop every day, ever since kindergarden, with my best friend, Lisa, and throwing a football back and forth with my other good friend, Tom. I went down the adjacent street, and thought about how many times I went trick or treating down that road, and how I'd never wear that vampire costume that my mom made me (that was actually pretty incredible when I think about it now, I think she still has it somewhere. She was always the arts and crafts god.) I thought a little later, when I had that friend, Eric. And even....Jen....I wont get into stories about her, for the sake of my mental health.
I decided I didn't want to walk past the nightclub, so I turned around and headed back. I started to think about the earth. Whenever I look at developments and roads and signs and buildings, I think of wounds in the earth, and we're just the mold that grew out of them. Those small patches of grass or plants at intersections and parking lots are a mockery...
I thought about Robin again when I came close to home. I almost cried a little bit, but I was probably just forcing it; I haven't cried in a while. I'm over Robin; I might get stuck in one spot sometimes, but I never move backwards.
The walk was a good idea. I feel very clean, and very humble.
I helped him set up his video card to his cable tv. Now he can watch tv on his computer. He was quite giddy about it.
Earlier tonight I noticed it was windy and cool ourside, so I decided I wanted to go for a walk. I had to get myself together, even if only a little bit. It was a wonderful walk. I walked the same street I have my entire life. I thought about walking to the busstop every day, ever since kindergarden, with my best friend, Lisa, and throwing a football back and forth with my other good friend, Tom. I went down the adjacent street, and thought about how many times I went trick or treating down that road, and how I'd never wear that vampire costume that my mom made me (that was actually pretty incredible when I think about it now, I think she still has it somewhere. She was always the arts and crafts god.) I thought a little later, when I had that friend, Eric. And even....Jen....I wont get into stories about her, for the sake of my mental health.
I decided I didn't want to walk past the nightclub, so I turned around and headed back. I started to think about the earth. Whenever I look at developments and roads and signs and buildings, I think of wounds in the earth, and we're just the mold that grew out of them. Those small patches of grass or plants at intersections and parking lots are a mockery...
I thought about Robin again when I came close to home. I almost cried a little bit, but I was probably just forcing it; I haven't cried in a while. I'm over Robin; I might get stuck in one spot sometimes, but I never move backwards.
The walk was a good idea. I feel very clean, and very humble.
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Nothing like a walk to clear out the randomness in the neurons.