.....the fuse just burned out... and the bomb just went off...
-boom-
-boom-
the_fin:
hopefully it was your bomb and you set it intentionally... you know how to reach the team if you need anything. 
The sub-plank chaos of quanta, where left and right and forward and backwards in time stop having meaning... they call it the quantum foam...
Well this is where I live today... I've become so use to planning things out, and now my only plan is to stop friggin planning things out...
Quanta and their mutually-exclusive nature of being observable in either a certain place or...
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Well this is where I live today... I've become so use to planning things out, and now my only plan is to stop friggin planning things out...
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the_fin:
Don't get me wrong, you were of course dead on with both topics. 
And yeah, it was my first, and yeah, it was everything that it should have been a good 15 years ago and more. And now I find myself just getting warmed up...
The thing about all that theory is that I grasp it. But as it applies to music, it is but an observation. Knowing how the wings of a butterfly cause/don't cause the largest tsunami on record does nothing for the composition of the current polyrhythmic atonalism apart form strengthening the resolve to continue the work knoing that it one does well that it will continue to trigger storms long after the the alchemist in question has passed on.
And yeah, it was my first, and yeah, it was everything that it should have been a good 15 years ago and more. And now I find myself just getting warmed up...
The thing about all that theory is that I grasp it. But as it applies to music, it is but an observation. Knowing how the wings of a butterfly cause/don't cause the largest tsunami on record does nothing for the composition of the current polyrhythmic atonalism apart form strengthening the resolve to continue the work knoing that it one does well that it will continue to trigger storms long after the the alchemist in question has passed on.
the_fin:
no worries, that happens every time regardless.
PS, anybody in that friends list that I actually know? oTis is on mine, he's the one who's account is suspended. :p
PS, anybody in that friends list that I actually know? oTis is on mine, he's the one who's account is suspended. :p
I was promoted to blackblt tonight.
I'm he fifth person that my instructor ha ever promoted to blackbelt in his thirty-three years f teaching martial arts...
Some schools give em away like party favors. To get one from my instructor, to be singled out as one of his five most important students ever, is beyond all doubt the greatest honor I've ever received in a...
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I'm he fifth person that my instructor ha ever promoted to blackbelt in his thirty-three years f teaching martial arts...
Some schools give em away like party favors. To get one from my instructor, to be singled out as one of his five most important students ever, is beyond all doubt the greatest honor I've ever received in a...
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I remember ages ago, I was walking down the street in Santa Monica. This little girl about six or seven years old is looking at me, holding her mother's hand.
She points at me candidly and loudly says, "Mommy! Look at that strange man!"
Her mother looks terrified and tries to pull the little girls pointing finger away from me, apology and embarrassment written across...
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She points at me candidly and loudly says, "Mommy! Look at that strange man!"
Her mother looks terrified and tries to pull the little girls pointing finger away from me, apology and embarrassment written across...
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the_fin:
ah yes, reminds me of the heady days of the punk rock 80s and telling worried mothers "watch out lady, I Bite!" as they shuffled their children away from us at the mall that we only went to to cause a fuss...
I'm fucked.... writing and writing... painting and painting... I'm so emotionally warn out.
...I'm totally out of fuel. If the big earthquake came right now, I'd likely just lie down and go to sleep... waiting for the power outages to kill the lights...
...I haven't slept more than a few hours in the last forty-eight... I've hardly eaten a thing... food is as bland as...
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...I'm totally out of fuel. If the big earthquake came right now, I'd likely just lie down and go to sleep... waiting for the power outages to kill the lights...
...I haven't slept more than a few hours in the last forty-eight... I've hardly eaten a thing... food is as bland as...
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Sometimes good, sometimes not so good....
In love with a whole different kinda crazy. I have abandonment issues, she has commitment issues.
I think the only thing in our way is a mutual overwhelming fear of every single aspect about one-another.
I just gotta keep reminding myself that I'm insane... that things aren't quite how I perceive them... That I need to chill and let...
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In love with a whole different kinda crazy. I have abandonment issues, she has commitment issues.
I think the only thing in our way is a mutual overwhelming fear of every single aspect about one-another.
I just gotta keep reminding myself that I'm insane... that things aren't quite how I perceive them... That I need to chill and let...
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the_fin:
maybe you should go show you stuff...
Nightmares last night...
A few years ago, dream and nightmare were synominous to me.
I'd go to sleep, and shut my eyes, and almost without exception soemthing horrible would happen...
If it was a bad one, and I awoke at any point , there was no fucking way that I was going back to sleep. The lost hours of sleep were generally a fair trade...
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A few years ago, dream and nightmare were synominous to me.
I'd go to sleep, and shut my eyes, and almost without exception soemthing horrible would happen...
If it was a bad one, and I awoke at any point , there was no fucking way that I was going back to sleep. The lost hours of sleep were generally a fair trade...
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...a dark turn in my mood... stupid fears from old ghosts coming out to haunt me... ghosts that betrayed me, ghosts that seethed bitter hate at me, ghosts that abandoned me for other men and women, ghosts that once enjoyed my loving touch and later recoiled from it, ghosts who used me as a weapon to hurt other people, and apathetic ghosts who never even...
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A three billion to one roll of the dice has led me to a woman who had, within a single night, made me fall in love with her...
I hunger for her body, even when fed to excess.
She inspires love and likewise terror..
She fills a lonely void within me, and thus makes me all the more lonely when she is gone.
When I...
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I hunger for her body, even when fed to excess.
She inspires love and likewise terror..
She fills a lonely void within me, and thus makes me all the more lonely when she is gone.
When I...
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dragynn:
dork! =P
i think you need a livejournal. that way i can more readily read your thoughts. i kinda have to sneak log on here at work. but lj is work safe.
meow.
see you soon.
R
i think you need a livejournal. that way i can more readily read your thoughts. i kinda have to sneak log on here at work. but lj is work safe.
meow.
see you soon.
R
Human beings.... half-scientist, half-simian...
half-beastly, half-angelic.... At best we're all only
arbitrarily rational, and only periodically lucid
enough to act upon those rational thoughts if we
manage to have one.
We're all jumbles of misfiring neurons and dubiously
engineered concoctions of chemical emotions.
Were it not for the inability of the human mind to
objectively collate the limited contents of our
accumulated knowledge, we would...
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half-beastly, half-angelic.... At best we're all only
arbitrarily rational, and only periodically lucid
enough to act upon those rational thoughts if we
manage to have one.
We're all jumbles of misfiring neurons and dubiously
engineered concoctions of chemical emotions.
Were it not for the inability of the human mind to
objectively collate the limited contents of our
accumulated knowledge, we would...
Read More