I really didn't want to update. I loved that journal entry. It had a nice organic mixture of my serious, dramatic, pragmatic and absurd. It's a shame people don't understand it when you mix it all together.
So I have 2 things for this entry: A statementand a question (with an explanation).
Statement - on emotions. I'm an emotion whore, but I don't wallow in them. Well I'm moody but I can still get my shit done. Hell, if here's one thing about emotions it's that they go away. And thanks to evolution and A.D.D. for that. But emotions while they get in the way, have a value to. A practical value, I think. I learn from emotions. And not simply like "Oh my broken heart, I shall love again. Such pain is unbearable!" Or anyhting even remotely along those lines. But I feel them and sometimes I have different emotions to similar experiences. in fact I usually do. But as I experience them, I learn to control them more, I learn about others to soem degree, they're a great source of motivation, creation and insight, and at the very least it can be a stress relief. Someone made me cry in their journal. I haven't ried, well my memory is really bad about some things. But I don't think I've cried for like two years and before that... a real long time. Alas, emotions (light or intense, pleasant or painful) give me an insight I just can't get by living a rational life. They too are another way of knowing things. To add to it, I get better and better at feeling and not thinking calmly at the same time.. if that makes sense.
Wow that was long? I fI I ask the question will anyone have read far ennough to answer it? One way to find out.
If you watch porn or view it or read it (and this is a porn site so I'm guessing you do), then why do you do it? Is it pleasure? a high libido? the art? or what? What qualities determine whther you like a piece of porn or not?What are the yes's and what are the no's?
I'll give my answers later.
btw, tofday was good because I realize that not paying close attention to my bank account has somehow alloed me to save $300 over the last two months?!?!? I'm not sure how that happened, but 'll have to figure it out.
So I have 2 things for this entry: A statementand a question (with an explanation).
Statement - on emotions. I'm an emotion whore, but I don't wallow in them. Well I'm moody but I can still get my shit done. Hell, if here's one thing about emotions it's that they go away. And thanks to evolution and A.D.D. for that. But emotions while they get in the way, have a value to. A practical value, I think. I learn from emotions. And not simply like "Oh my broken heart, I shall love again. Such pain is unbearable!" Or anyhting even remotely along those lines. But I feel them and sometimes I have different emotions to similar experiences. in fact I usually do. But as I experience them, I learn to control them more, I learn about others to soem degree, they're a great source of motivation, creation and insight, and at the very least it can be a stress relief. Someone made me cry in their journal. I haven't ried, well my memory is really bad about some things. But I don't think I've cried for like two years and before that... a real long time. Alas, emotions (light or intense, pleasant or painful) give me an insight I just can't get by living a rational life. They too are another way of knowing things. To add to it, I get better and better at feeling and not thinking calmly at the same time.. if that makes sense.
Wow that was long? I fI I ask the question will anyone have read far ennough to answer it? One way to find out.
If you watch porn or view it or read it (and this is a porn site so I'm guessing you do), then why do you do it? Is it pleasure? a high libido? the art? or what? What qualities determine whther you like a piece of porn or not?What are the yes's and what are the no's?
I'll give my answers later.
btw, tofday was good because I realize that not paying close attention to my bank account has somehow alloed me to save $300 over the last two months?!?!? I'm not sure how that happened, but 'll have to figure it out.
itburns:
Because I was 21 and druged up at a party he attended in Cleveland, OH. It felt like I actually died.