Quitting smoking will drive me insane. My body is all tweaked out jaws clenched, skin crawling and brain is contantly thinking of cigarettes in the most passive aggressive childish ways... It doesn't care about reason, of feeling it just wants a fucking cigarette, would that be so bad? would it? It's so easy to forget how horrible it makes you feel to smoke, when not smoking sets your body and mind into a frenzy. I really need to be able to focus too, maybe if I just exhaust my body to the point of not being able to actually suffer through withdrawal because it's too tired, I won't have to go through this. Fuck I'm not gonna exercise yet. Whom I kidding?!?!?!? But yoga.. I can do that. right? Fuck my mind is going a million miles in no particular direction. Double Fuck! 
