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I can't remember the rest of that dream. It was the most detailed dream I had had in along time. That's frustrating.

Anyway, my boss was fired at work, This is a good thing and I might add that it is not cruel to fire someone before Christmas, if that person is indeed cruel herself. nevermind, that I couldn't help but resent being managed by soemone who didn't know that Missouri borders Illinois, despite having lived in Illinois her entire life. I felt positively charmed after the news was official. I was radiant.
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Then the Christmas party. the filet mignon was cooked perfectly. I indulged the feeling, like a symphony. And then there was the cheesecake with strawberry sauce. Good food makes me horny in a way that makes me want to forget my hearing and my vision. When all that exists is a world beyond simple understanding.
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But I drank too many gin and tonics. They always make me tired and here I sit tired but unable to nap. I will most likely go to see my brother in a little while. That boy's lack of concern for other people scares me. And I have monster in my name. But he lacks the self-control and has no prior history of good judgement.

He may have gone out though. I may get to nap afterall.
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I want to kiss golden perfection of comprehending flesh softly and feel stimulus melt with response as blinding wonder engulfs the moments. Is that too much to ask? For today it is. For today it is. sleep.