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Too deep and not deep enough

As of late I have felt many things... instinctually andas a reaction. Somethigns I simply cannot put my finger on. some vague sahpes in the shadows. Are these shadows I once knew or felt vaguely? Yes, at least one of them. But I simply beat it last time. Now it's back.

You see, apathy is a normal thing when...
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So, I'm spending my vacation with a bleeding ass and getting blood samples drawn, and waiting anxiously to find out what the fuck is wrong with my body?!? And Iall I really wanted to do was find a new job, but if anyhting is really wrong, it probably isn't the time to switch jobs. sigh...

Anyone know of any entry-level marketing jobs, preferably doing online...
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evillyn:

is bright red blood or does it have a coffee ground appearance? coffee grounds would mean it has been digested.

Sep 28, 2004

I am consumed with feeling at this point in time. Like my just yearning to stay together, to be cohesive because it is not a good time to let it spill out of me.

Strange to still e emotional about the world, the people I don't know. I see soldiers marching as a I drive by a suburban army base or storage plant of some...
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A man named Vincent, who now lives in Canada and has given up his US citizenship, once told me this:

The 3 greatest cliches of life are:
1. "It's not SEX! It's ART!"
2. "Fuck art, let's DANCE!"
3. "Some people have to dance, some people have to kill."

That was all he had told me. Now, 8 years later, I see these as solid...
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I'm going to hermit. i will grow under this veil of attention. Anyone worth a damn will understand.

I'm not sure how I can help her. She sits and wonders what? why? how? and will not believe in this wall of mine and that I'm the only one who can walk across it. It falls down like a blue helmet across my forehead and I'm veiled in silence away from those who try to stand too near.

Let me breathe and I will...
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I feel good because I led my boss into a trap and tactfully made her think she was out of it. I felt her back off from that point on so I could just go on with my day. She told me later that I made her feel nervous.

You see, some people will never understand that you can be honest and kind and respectful...
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