ignominy

Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.

Lao-tzu in Tao te Ching


So 3 years ago or so, Corey lent me this tiny little translation (seriously, it's 3"x5") of Tao te Ching and I never gave it back. I love it. I never really used it to meditate, even though I suppose that's what it was meant for. I have a few lines I like to think about when I meditate. One that has really kept me calm lately is: Where is your true home? I lived with Chari but it wasn't my home. Even the place I have now, which I love to pieces isn't my home. And it took me a long, lonely time to realize it, but my home isn't a place. And even more reassuring than that, no one else can intrude in my home (because you know how I feel about my personal space).

I remember how worthless I felt because I had no privacy, no personal space when I lived with Chari. And now I see how that was such an irrational concern.

And I've started meditating again in the mornings. How could I have ever given that up? It is probably my favorite time of day. Anyway, I came across that first stanza this morning and it just seemed so fitting. Of course, I will never reach enlightenment because I will always be in want of more coffee.


P.S. Saul Williams is the shit.