ignacia

its been more than a week sience i havent spoke with him..
its allways the same. i just dont even care
so is it normal? not to care about youre other half? not to miss him?
i feel like im married after 30 years
and so
we dont speak anymore
he doesnt know me anymore
i just dont want to let him in.
and he doesnt make anything
i guess we just kinda give up on eachother

its kinda sad for me cuz i have made my life plan around him
we got the apartment and all after 2 years paying it and fighting about it
and now all my world falls apart
and i dont know what.s next
i dont even want to know
i just havent think about all this things cuz i.ve been so busy
but fuck!
i just want to fall sleep for 5 years more and wake up
and have a life again and don-t think about anything anymore
but i just can
wel... my mom won-t let me have that break
cuz she knows it-ll be worse

so.


whatever