Wednesday Apr 27, 2005

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i really dont understand life sometimes... basically the old is there a god type of thing, sometimes i really would like to believe in some type of being looking over us. i really never could believe in a typical christian god, or any other faith ive found for that matter, but deep down i hope there is someone watching over us cause we really need it.

sorry for the philosiphizing but this was brought on by something that has affected me deeply, my roommate Tiff who i love more than anyone else in my life just lost her baby. she was six months pregnant, i just dont understand why things like this happen, it hurts me so much when i see pain in other peoples lives. ive always tried to be the understanding friend that listens and the shoulder to cry on, but i just cant provide any consolation in a situation like this. i just dont understand.....


I love you tiff
renegadefuzz:
hey hon.. sorry to hear about your roomie's loss. My mum had a stillborn... sadly as much as it sounds harsh to think about it.. lucky it was a miscarriage, because with a stillborn you expect to have the baby, and your hopes are crushed last minute.

and as for that whole "Is there a god, cause if so, he's sure fucking with us" tangent... I never know. Sometimes I think there is one (I can tell you a good story about why I have some faith, in anything), and other times (like in your roomie's situation) everything seems utterly lost.....

well, even if there is nothing up there, just remember everyone down here... love!
renegadefuzz:
there was a chinese crested terrier at the walk today! soooo cute! I think I'd be a wolf hound.. tallest dog breed in the world.. and so regal... real strength too.

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