I'm losing my mind.
My doctor took me off my medications so that we could start a new medication. In the meantime I've detoxed and my mind functions have gone through the floor. I've tried to ditch all my friends, started fights, angered people. Everyone is upset or mad at me.
I've been on the phone all day, trying to get started on the new medication to get my shit together. I've got to fly out to California tomorrow to scatter my wife's ashes this weekend. My brain is fried, I can't focus on ANYTHING. I feel like I'm just falling apart in every part of my brain.
I'm paranoid, upset, depressed, angry, panicky, nauseous. A bit suicidal. Just falling apart over-all and things are not going great.
I don't know how I'm going to make this shit right. Or if I even can, if I even want to. It's hard not to feel like everything deserves to be in the toilet. Like I don't deserve to have everyone upset with me.
My doctor took me off my medications so that we could start a new medication. In the meantime I've detoxed and my mind functions have gone through the floor. I've tried to ditch all my friends, started fights, angered people. Everyone is upset or mad at me.
I've been on the phone all day, trying to get started on the new medication to get my shit together. I've got to fly out to California tomorrow to scatter my wife's ashes this weekend. My brain is fried, I can't focus on ANYTHING. I feel like I'm just falling apart in every part of my brain.
I'm paranoid, upset, depressed, angry, panicky, nauseous. A bit suicidal. Just falling apart over-all and things are not going great.
I don't know how I'm going to make this shit right. Or if I even can, if I even want to. It's hard not to feel like everything deserves to be in the toilet. Like I don't deserve to have everyone upset with me.
drusylla:
Can you make an appt with your doctor and insist you start your new medication? Since your symptoms are so severe, I'm sure you could get SOMETHING to hold you over til then.
idwraith:
I'm trying. Working on getting a phone conference going and then having them send my information to the pharmacy so that I can pick up the script and have it filled by the end of today...but I haven't heard back from them.