idwraith

So things have been a bit harder than we thought they were going to be. Getting any kind of assistance has been difficult and we're running behind on our bills, but I think we can manage that. Of course, by manage I mean rob Peter to pay Paul. I'm going to enroll in classes next semester and hope I can deal with them. I'll use...
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I just quit my job for mental health reasons, now I've been going through my MySpace, Twitter, Facebook and LJ and carving away all the people I only have because I used to know them, getting rid of the folks I never talk too. I've spent too much time being held back by the past. Time to start looking forward, or past time.

Ironically the day after I posted that everything was fine I ended up going into the hospital and spending a 2 and a half day vacation inside the Mental Wing to have my anxiety and other issues seen. Now I've got a bit more of a medical umbrella to take care of my issues.

So, things have calmed down a bit. My wife's pacemaker has been working fine, has healed up and she's had a lot more energy. We've been trying to get out to play tennis every so often and taking regular walks with the kids. This is made somewhat complicated by the fact that I seem to be developing agoraphobia. It's getting to be pretty damned annoying...
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OK, yesterday was something of a powerful day for me.

It all started at 11:30pm Thursday night. My wife suffered a sudden "cramp" in her keel muscles under her left breast. The pain lasted 20-30 seconds and then faded, she fell asleep. So did I.

At 4:30am my baby son woke up, my wife climbed out of bed and tried to get him but was...
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It never rains but it pours. Things have been pretty crazy around here lately. From the simply obnoxious stuff like my mortgage getting another $100/month in taxes added to it to my wife and girlfriend striking sparks now that theyre living nearer to each other.

My Grandfather has been slowly dying of Leukemia for about 3 years now, at this point his bone marrow has...
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I hate the phrase soul-mate.

I acknowledge that people instinctively start to stratify their relationships. That as primates we start categorizing people in terms of how much affect they have on our lives. We all have dominant and secondary people in our lives. The higher they are in our internal pyramid the more influence they have over your decisions, actions and emotions.

But I don't...
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It's late and I'm pretty tired. I was just thinking how absolutely wonderful it is to be married to such a beautiful woman as I have, and to have such a delightful couple to be getting together with, as we do. They're just a lovely selection of people and it's really an absolutely mind blowing experience to be around all of them at the same...
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Life has gotten interesting. My wife and I have started dating another couple. This is a full out polyamorous dating situation. My wife is bi, as is the other couple's wife, I'm bi, as is the husband, its a quad dating situation. We're taking things really slowly, learning where the boundaries are, dealing with jealousies as they arise. All I can say....is I never considered...
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Things have been hectic. I've been having a hard time focusing upon classwork. End of semester burnout. Sometimes it sucks to be a fulltime student and be working 6 days a week (about 53 hours a week) I've got about 2 weeks left this semester and I cannot wait until it is just done and over with. I am tired.

On the GREAT side, my...
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http://www.godhatesfags.com/written/wbcinfo/aboutwbc.html

I'm rarely one to actively try and fight against people's right to free speech. I am anti-censorship and personally I love to support free expression. Yet, this enrages me. It leaves me blind and incoherent in disgust. This is the church organized by Fred Phelps, the guy who had th website counting the days since Matthew Shepard was sent to hell. They're the church...
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So, yesterday I had my gallbladder removed. I remember them attaching the needle to the IV, then nothing. But when I woke up in the recovery room I was thrashing and moaning about the pain. I apparently was not at my best as I first started coming too. So, aside from my craziness on waking up things went well. I am pretty damned sore, but...
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