idoru

okay, quick update. My new job is really boring so far. I can't believe they're paying me so much to do such boring stuff. It's not exactly easy. Not yet anyway. I've only worked 4 days and only had someone there to really train me for 2 of those days. There's so much to learn it's a bit overwhelming. I do kinda miss my old job, but just for the security of being in complete control and knowing everything. But I had to work up to that. It took me a few years before I was that comfortable and had learned everything. I'm sure I'll get that way with this job and I will totally rock it. It's really weird to have a "grown up" job now. I've been working in a pizza place for the last 5 years and most of my employees were younger than me. high school kids. it was a part-time kinda thing. nothing serious. But now I'm the youngest person in the office. Noone complains about how much they hate their job. There's no petty bullshit. Noone comes to work hungover after partying all weekend and not sleeping. This is serious. I feel like I can't be myself yet because I do act a little silly and look pretty young and I need these people to learn that they can take me seriously before I can come to work in pigtails and glitter eyeshadow and I need to learn my job before I can start showing my personality. So i'm feeling a little repressed and a little overwhelmed and a little bored with sitting and filing and processing warrants all day. I'll get used to it. It's just a huge change of pace.