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Listening to good old high school favorite Electronic with Bernard Sumner (New Order), Johnny Marr (The Smiths), and the singer from Pet Shop Boys (For those not in the know and I am an old fucking fart in comparison to 85% of SG)

"I hate that mirror it makes me feel so worthless
I am an original sinner but when I with you I couldn't care less
I been getting away with it all my life...I been talking to myself just to suggest that I am selfish..."

Ahhhhh the late 80's early 90's - loved it.

Well, when you are unemployed, strange notions enter your head. I have had the most unrealistic (or maybe not) thoughts because I am just so exhausted from the career ramble that I am thinking: ok, get in great shape, best of your life, you have 2 more years of eligibility for the service, join, take the adventure, if they ship you to Iraq all the better for a writer..."

That is the most powerful thought that fulfills the WHAT NEXT gap (maybe that is the point, just wait for the what next, read the signs and signals)...

I mean I applied for a job at Tower Records and the pay is 5.50. I have 6 years of post high school study. What the fuck. Trouble is I want in a entertainment industry that so many others want in on and competition is at its peek in this age of instant bullshit fame...

I just believe some motherfucking thing has got to happen, and the opportunity will present itself soon enough.

Christ I sound like an Occultist. So be it.