idalucille

so there are some kids at my place from kc....oh, wait. there are always kids here from kc. and i have anxiety attacks and cant leave my room when they are visiting.

i always fantasized about how i would react when i walked in on my ex with another girl. now i know that i just cant react to much of anything. sometimes i can step back and see myself dropping friends like dominos. but i always just separate myself from it and not care.

i'm at a pretty low point lately. going to chicago without an idea of where i will stay and how i will come home. fuck it.

i used to think this was all a karma police sort of deal but i dont think i fucked up that much.

this weekends hopes: get fucked up and get fucked. (it's girl positive.)