idais31

have you ever met someone that you fell soo deeply in love with that you actually wanted to become a better person not only for them but for you?
you even thought that you could spend the rest of your life with that person and grow old and raise grandchildren together?
then that person only wanted to be friends with you??
and you kept a small glimmer of hope thinking mabey someday they will see you for the person you trully are?
then that person youve known for years and have felt something click inside them by the way they act and do things for you,but for some reason they wont take the next step?
now take all this and imagine they tell you they just got married only for insurance reasons.
how do you feel???
thats what im going through right now,lol.if its not one thing its another.
im just going to build a two foot wall around my heart and just think only of money and work.
my god it would be great to be able to write something happy in this thing someday.
i hope i meet her soon.