At some point you would think I would learn when I am just a convenience for someone and not that they actually care or even love me. I guess it is just me that someone is incapable of having real feelings for me. I guess I am wrong to think I deserve that, at least once. Maybe just from the get go, I was considered unworthy of simple and real connections with another person. I don’t mean with friends or the like, but to go beyond friends. Most of the time it seems I am just that convenience of being there until they find someone better. I just don’t get it, maybe I’m completely flawed. Is it so wrong to want someone that truly is there for me?