You would think that troubleshooting a cell phone would not be that stressfull of a job. I will apologize now, I am not going to correct my speeling errors from the this day. I just really don't care anymore. This was absolutely a day from hell. NOt as bad a day as one of my friends on here had and I hope she has much better days from now on.
I think I reached a level today that I may not be able to step back from. Normally when I leave work, all of the shit stays there. It just won't go away tonight. I realized today that I lost a friend, or thought she was a friend, today. She made it very clear that I was only important to her when she needed something. Sadly no, it wasn't for that. I honestly don't put myself out there, on the line, without a shiled. There are a few on here that I would drop that shield to help them if they asked. Yes, I may ramble on a bit and go off track, sue me. With my "friend" honestly, I love her. Not in the way of marriage but in the way of of of... hell, I can't explain it. It is something that I will get over, just added on the work day from hell, btw we wrok together, it is just about my breaking point.
I don't care if I go back, but in a very sad and sick way, I still care about her. We have been frineds for awhile, she has done some dumb things and picked some really bad guys. Then she gets mad at me for having friends on here that I talk to. Yes, jealous but not because she wants me.
Welcome to my hell. A gorgeous friend that doesn't want me (no real surprise) but doesn't want me around another female. It probably doesn't help that her best friends hates one of my friends. lol
Yes, I have to laugh or just fall down and stay there.
Waiting for the self hatered to start so that I can realize this is my fault somehow.
Just sick:
I think I reached a level today that I may not be able to step back from. Normally when I leave work, all of the shit stays there. It just won't go away tonight. I realized today that I lost a friend, or thought she was a friend, today. She made it very clear that I was only important to her when she needed something. Sadly no, it wasn't for that. I honestly don't put myself out there, on the line, without a shiled. There are a few on here that I would drop that shield to help them if they asked. Yes, I may ramble on a bit and go off track, sue me. With my "friend" honestly, I love her. Not in the way of marriage but in the way of of of... hell, I can't explain it. It is something that I will get over, just added on the work day from hell, btw we wrok together, it is just about my breaking point.
I don't care if I go back, but in a very sad and sick way, I still care about her. We have been frineds for awhile, she has done some dumb things and picked some really bad guys. Then she gets mad at me for having friends on here that I talk to. Yes, jealous but not because she wants me.
Welcome to my hell. A gorgeous friend that doesn't want me (no real surprise) but doesn't want me around another female. It probably doesn't help that her best friends hates one of my friends. lol
Yes, I have to laugh or just fall down and stay there.
Waiting for the self hatered to start so that I can realize this is my fault somehow.
Just sick:
avenall:
This is a fucking unsatisfactory situation. I'm sorry to hear about this and, for the most part, us ladies are often mystifying creatures. Usually that manifests itself in a good way, but it seems like you've caught the short end of the stick.... and for that, I apologize 
Hope things get at least a bit more liveable.
Hope things get at least a bit more liveable.