Reality is quite an odd thinkg. My reality is only my own as long as someone else's doesn't touch it. Figure that happens more often than maybe wanted. Anyway, before I get started please note, I have not looking for sympathy or pity, just stating what is going on with me. Nope not even negative, just facts.
To start with, I have met some very amazing people on here and honestly have made a few, that I would consider, friends. I have come to notice that it is very difficult for most to deal with a truly honest person. Sorry, if it has bothered any of you. If I have stated you are beautiful, gorgeous etc... it is because I think you are and no, there is no atlerior motive involved. No thought s of having you as a girlfriend or anything more than a friend. Granted there are a few that if it were possible, I would be on one knee everyday thanking God for having you. A great babydoll would be nice
I guess I need to thank a couple of people first who kind of lead me into my own mind and the reality of things. Thank you Maple and HeatherAnn.
As I have expressed to one of the few on here, I think I am in desperate need of a gf or buddy yet I am currently kind of tired of trying. Lond distance relationships never work, so really as far as on here is concerned, it really wouldn't be possible at distance even if it was somethig wanted. Currently there is only one close and the interest isn't there. Granted, I realise my age has a lot to do with things. Again not to make anyone uncomfortable, I do date younger than me, a lot younger. Before you jump to the wrong frame of mind
I have dated closer to my age and in this area, they are insane, not a few but the majority and they can't admit it. lol I honestly don't have much in common with people around here.
Age is just numbers. It really doesn't matter if two poeple care about each other. Maturity is the only issue.
While on the caring aspect, if I seem concerned about you, it is because I am. Again, no alterior motive. So yes, if I messaged you asking questions about something that may be going on, it is because I honestly care about what is going on with you.
Anyway, I have jumped way off target here. lol I will be gone for awhile. Currently I am in the process of selling almost everything i own. Time to go, for awhile. I have realized I am going to miss many of you, very much. Including a new trend that seems to be going on with one of you that goes with morning coffee. lol
My friend that is currently on vacation well, she knows I will miss her.
I am just needing to make a change and no, leaving my friends is not the change. Just a break from the way things are with me currently. Just taking a trip to clear my mind. Giving myself a couple of weeks may do more harm than good but something has to change.
Ok, so in a nutshell, my life is kind of like reading a script, one page at a time after it has been blown all of the park and completely out of order. lol It makes a little sense but is generally nonsense.
It will be a couple of days before I head south, I think. Not sure of that either. lol
To start with, I have met some very amazing people on here and honestly have made a few, that I would consider, friends. I have come to notice that it is very difficult for most to deal with a truly honest person. Sorry, if it has bothered any of you. If I have stated you are beautiful, gorgeous etc... it is because I think you are and no, there is no atlerior motive involved. No thought s of having you as a girlfriend or anything more than a friend. Granted there are a few that if it were possible, I would be on one knee everyday thanking God for having you. A great babydoll would be nice
I guess I need to thank a couple of people first who kind of lead me into my own mind and the reality of things. Thank you Maple and HeatherAnn.
As I have expressed to one of the few on here, I think I am in desperate need of a gf or buddy yet I am currently kind of tired of trying. Lond distance relationships never work, so really as far as on here is concerned, it really wouldn't be possible at distance even if it was somethig wanted. Currently there is only one close and the interest isn't there. Granted, I realise my age has a lot to do with things. Again not to make anyone uncomfortable, I do date younger than me, a lot younger. Before you jump to the wrong frame of mind
I have dated closer to my age and in this area, they are insane, not a few but the majority and they can't admit it. lol I honestly don't have much in common with people around here.
Age is just numbers. It really doesn't matter if two poeple care about each other. Maturity is the only issue.
While on the caring aspect, if I seem concerned about you, it is because I am. Again, no alterior motive.
So yes, if I messaged you asking questions about something that may be going on, it is because I honestly care about what is going on with you.
Anyway, I have jumped way off target here. lol I will be gone for awhile. Currently I am in the process of selling almost everything i own. Time to go, for awhile. I have realized I am going to miss many of you, very much. Including a new trend that seems to be going on with one of you that goes with morning coffee.
lol
My friend that is currently on vacation well, she knows I will miss her.
I am just needing to make a change and no, leaving my friends is not the change. Just a break from the way things are with me currently. Just taking a trip to clear my mind. Giving myself a couple of weeks may do more harm than good but something has to change.
Ok, so in a nutshell, my life is kind of like reading a script, one page at a time after it has been blown all of the park and completely out of order. lol It makes a little sense but is generally nonsense.
It will be a couple of days before I head south, I think. Not sure of that either. lol
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