Ok. This is a week of being sick, and I'm just about at the end of my fucking patience with this thing. Aches I could handle. The cough I could handle. Most of the other bullshit, as nasty as it was, I could handle.
The fever dreams, however, have got to fucking go.
It's like a bad trip you just can't sober up from. Close...
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The fever dreams, however, have got to fucking go.
It's like a bad trip you just can't sober up from. Close...
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"I have seen the others, and I have discovered that this fight is not worth fighting. And I've seen their mothers, and I'll will no other to follow me where I'm going... you are young, man, you must be living... go now you are forgiven..."
I finally found this song. It's been quite a while that I've sought it, and though there were many barriers...
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I finally found this song. It's been quite a while that I've sought it, and though there were many barriers...
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m_bethany:
we search for similar things... mainly to love ourselves and let ourselves be loved.
it is difficult for us, two of a kind. that is why we fair better as friends than as any other relation - to help each other when we find the pieces to the answers.
would you like to dicuss further? I have an opening for dinner at the Grove tomorrow if you would like to accompany me as a date (aka you take me out... cuz I am broke!
) - that is, if you are up to satifying my need for intellectual conversation.
I fucking love you. You are so intelligent it almost makes me feel like I know nothing of importance... does that make sense as a compliment?
I would love to hear from you. Call me at home or email me tomorrow, I have a film interview/audition at 3:30 pm and then nothing more.. a run is in order in the AM I think.
much love. as always.
it is difficult for us, two of a kind. that is why we fair better as friends than as any other relation - to help each other when we find the pieces to the answers.
would you like to dicuss further? I have an opening for dinner at the Grove tomorrow if you would like to accompany me as a date (aka you take me out... cuz I am broke!
) - that is, if you are up to satifying my need for intellectual conversation.
I fucking love you. You are so intelligent it almost makes me feel like I know nothing of importance... does that make sense as a compliment?
I would love to hear from you. Call me at home or email me tomorrow, I have a film interview/audition at 3:30 pm and then nothing more.. a run is in order in the AM I think.
much love. as always.
13 hour day at the office yesterday, followed up by a very early morning to make sure everything came together perfectly... so I took off early, came home and had a nap with the cat. I love that fuzzball.
OUCH. Three bottles or sake, a huge bottle of belgian beer, and I can't remember what else... all on no food. I shouldn't be allowed to drink when I'm this stressed.
At least I had some really great people around (angel0diablo) to help me through the morning.
At least I had some really great people around (angel0diablo) to help me through the morning.
m_bethany:
puss puss
I got your back - I just hate seeing you do that to yourself... believe it or not, it hurts me too you know.
(le sigh) I still fucking love ya - as long as you keep the dinner you spoke of... we have to catch up!
puss puss
I got your back - I just hate seeing you do that to yourself... believe it or not, it hurts me too you know.
(le sigh) I still fucking love ya - as long as you keep the dinner you spoke of... we have to catch up!
It's a gorgeous, amazing day. I'm going to go enjoy it.
I'm tired of seeing my mom drunk when I go to my parent's place. Went tonight to fix my little sister's computer, and there's my mom, probably a bottle of wine into the night, making cracks about my stepdad being dull, proclaiming that she'd want to be single, making comments about my biological father, laughing, crying... hell, at least this time she wasn't trying to...
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m_bethany:
would love to see you when I cruise in tomorrow... I have to drive my bro out to his house tonight in traffic... also business to be handled... either way, I will give you a ring sometime tomorrow late morning and see what is up with you...
I just need to chill and smile. What to do that with me?
You have to see the new house anyway.... hope you are doing okay...
BTW- my drinking/substance abuse has gone down quite a bit, just remember some of us self-medicate that way.... you are no different if I remember correctly.. *loves and hugs*
I just need to chill and smile. What to do that with me?
You have to see the new house anyway.... hope you are doing okay...
BTW- my drinking/substance abuse has gone down quite a bit, just remember some of us self-medicate that way.... you are no different if I remember correctly.. *loves and hugs*
Ouch. Capoeira practice for two hours, then straight to the gym... all after not being able to sleep well for days.
That's going to leave a mark.
That's going to leave a mark.
m_bethany:
thank you for the comment. you are so sweet to me. how about a drink when I get out of Dennis Miller Live...? that is, if you are still suffering from insomnia... leave me a comment to check when I get home tonight...
much love. stop beating yourself up... oh and I have some party favors to discuss for saturday night.
puss puss.
much love. stop beating yourself up... oh and I have some party favors to discuss for saturday night.
puss puss.
m_bethany:
got a Tom Cruise movie... ek!!!! 
Grrr.
Can't fucking stay asleep.
This is going on, what, over a week now of bad sleep?
Can't fucking stay asleep.
This is going on, what, over a week now of bad sleep?
I am so fucking tired. Not physically (though it's getting there), but I'm definitely fatigued by the banality and inhumanity of my work environment.
It's time to get some sleep, stoke the fires and rise before the sun and burn the fucking day to cinders.
It's time to get some sleep, stoke the fires and rise before the sun and burn the fucking day to cinders.
bluechild:
mushroom enchiladas? hmmm come to mexico, get real enchiladas 
So I'm back from the void. ie, I once again have a working computer at home. I'll try not to cook this one.
I had it (rather pointedly) brought to my attention that I never update here. I guess that's true. I do most of my blogging on livejournal, seeing as I can access it from work. On the other hand, I've realized that I...
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I had it (rather pointedly) brought to my attention that I never update here. I guess that's true. I do most of my blogging on livejournal, seeing as I can access it from work. On the other hand, I've realized that I...
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I want to bring you chicken soup but I am shooting nights this week... and things are looking up for a little bit lately... just FYI.
when you feel up to it, I will bore you with the details. You just let me know when you are ready.
until then,
~ the angel*