These are very moody days for me. My mood was always linked to the weather, and in these days the weather is crazy and my mood changes continously.
In addition to this i realized yesterday night i miss the "seeking for fire in relationship". In the past I was always attracted to very passionate, powerfull and destroyng relationship and i was litteraly unable to accept nothing less than burning love. Driven by that "need" i lived all my past relationships with very hight peak of joy and very very deep pain. It was impossible for me continuing in that way and i choose to seek balance in my life and to seek "positive" relationship. I found it. I found balance with myself and i let slip away the urge to prove that the relationship i'm living is "the true love" in the movie way to mean it. I'm very happy with that and very proud of myself about this achievement...
...but sometimes, like yesterday night, i really miss the feeling of "the fire". The joy of living very powerfull emotions, the strange crazy feeling of loosing self preservation following the lure toward another person, the feeling of being powerless in front of something majestic and dangerous, like fire.
