iamtony

so here's the deal. i have had 3 bouts w/ cocaine and the last was really really bad, 159 days straigt. i fell of the wagon a couple of times but i kicked it 3 months ago. a year and half ago this doc puts me on klonopin, now im addicted to benzodiazepines. xanxax, valium, whatever. i take at least 8 mgs of klonopin, 4 mgs of xanax and 20 mgs of valium a day. and lunesta and ambien to sleep. It litterally hurts, im mean total physical discomfort when i attemp to withdrawl. but i have to do it. I began purchasing meds from china and i got two letters from the DEA stating that what i was doning is considered a felony, but if i wanted to contest i could. uhhh, let me see, no thanks! so i have 52 days left of meds and i leave for central america in 2 weeks. i will be there 5 months camped in the middle of the jungle, by myself, so i cant order the meds online. My goal is to come back to nyc clean and sober and start a new career. wish me luck, cause im gonna need it.

so i joined again to document the above and of course to look at all of the boobies.