Well,
I sort of thought things might get better. I drew positives out of the negatives. I found strength when I was weak. I felt like I didn't need the one that clearly didn't need me. Because there she was.. so quick, so perfect.
But then, as quickly as they were handed to me, things changed equally as abruptly. Maybe these plans can be saved. Maybe the owner of these plans isn't a fuckhead who would rather ignore something bad rather than fixing it. I might find out tomorrow.
It stems from the fact that I have declared my exodus from this town. And that she doesn't want to get in to anything with me considering that. And being either "older and wiser" or just generally non chalont (French words not in Fireworks dictionary..?) about the whole concept of "girlfriend and boyfriend".. I can't even finish that thought... I tried to get drunk and forgetful of things. It has semi-worked and I need to sleep right now. I might miss.
I sort of thought things might get better. I drew positives out of the negatives. I found strength when I was weak. I felt like I didn't need the one that clearly didn't need me. Because there she was.. so quick, so perfect.
But then, as quickly as they were handed to me, things changed equally as abruptly. Maybe these plans can be saved. Maybe the owner of these plans isn't a fuckhead who would rather ignore something bad rather than fixing it. I might find out tomorrow.
It stems from the fact that I have declared my exodus from this town. And that she doesn't want to get in to anything with me considering that. And being either "older and wiser" or just generally non chalont (French words not in Fireworks dictionary..?) about the whole concept of "girlfriend and boyfriend".. I can't even finish that thought... I tried to get drunk and forgetful of things. It has semi-worked and I need to sleep right now. I might miss.
Come get drunk & dance around my loungeroom. We'll both feel much better...