ahh CRAP!
my dad just sprung the thing in me that i'd managed to forget about. all that stress and anxiety plagued me for months and i was finally beginning to be content with most things in my life. this is fucked.
he brought to my attention that it has been almost a year since my mother and him separated, and that to put it bluntly, we were getting cut off. this should be fine, because michael and i should have well enough paying jobs to support ourselves. this isn't fine. this isn't fine at all. if my mum were to get a job or go on the dole (and have to do the various compulsary dole activities), she wouldn't make half of what we need to continue living the life we live. my dad is prepared to sign his half of the house over to my brothers and i, and my vote is for SELL. hell i don't know what to do. i'm the responsible one, and if i don't know what to do, then who does?
the whole reason i didn't get married.. however long ago it was.. was because i'm not in any position to be supporting a family. not financially, not anything. i'm a pretty grounded person and i don't do a lot of the fucking around type things that most people i know still do, but i still have a lot of growing up to do. it would be easy for me to move out and look after myself, and although all of the responsibility doesn't fall squarely on my head, i feel like it does, and that all the decisions will be mine to make.
i do not want this.
my dad just sprung the thing in me that i'd managed to forget about. all that stress and anxiety plagued me for months and i was finally beginning to be content with most things in my life. this is fucked.
he brought to my attention that it has been almost a year since my mother and him separated, and that to put it bluntly, we were getting cut off. this should be fine, because michael and i should have well enough paying jobs to support ourselves. this isn't fine. this isn't fine at all. if my mum were to get a job or go on the dole (and have to do the various compulsary dole activities), she wouldn't make half of what we need to continue living the life we live. my dad is prepared to sign his half of the house over to my brothers and i, and my vote is for SELL. hell i don't know what to do. i'm the responsible one, and if i don't know what to do, then who does?
the whole reason i didn't get married.. however long ago it was.. was because i'm not in any position to be supporting a family. not financially, not anything. i'm a pretty grounded person and i don't do a lot of the fucking around type things that most people i know still do, but i still have a lot of growing up to do. it would be easy for me to move out and look after myself, and although all of the responsibility doesn't fall squarely on my head, i feel like it does, and that all the decisions will be mine to make.
i do not want this.
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kasha:
hello ghost!!!
cleverthings:
How could I have written my comment BEFORE you wrote your actual journal entry?? Do you see the insanity here?? 