i_am_ghost

my birthday was a pretty crappy little experience. it was the smallest present haul i've ever had. of course it's not about the presents. despite the fact that i'm so awesome at buying for others and not expect or demand an equivalent in return, it's just sorta nice to feel a little appreciated. in the form of expensive and gratifying gifts. it was probably about half as much as any other year ever. but enough about the presents.

i wanted mine and jades' party to be fun and make up for the crappiness that was the 20 previous hours of being 22. it didn't get off to a good start. derek gave me stubble rash when he birthday kissed me. i was so hoping to get made out with on my birthday. how bad it was that it was a boy. and adam was being a dick, as he generally is under the influence of multiple substances. some people don't know how to act around people they don't know. i don't want to have to look after people because i know better. i think i put too much pressure on the party being the saviour of my day.

and jade got rather upset. it's frustrating to feel helpless because someone wont open up. didn't get so much as a happy birthday text from leah. and rebecca left within like an hour. which included 4 minutes of talking to me and 56 minutes of talking to paul. and i'm a bitter little s.o.b. but so what. it's my birthday and i'll whinge if i fucking want to!