Moved into my brothers, blown a couple good processors and motherboards, realized my love for my ex and mother of my son is still powerful, feel trapped at work, don't make enough money to support myself completely, and then there's the family stuff. I blame the fucking lousy holi-fucking-days for that one. 
I may up and move out west. I can't handle all of this. So much bullshit all at once, and I don't feel like dealing with it. I would have such a weight lifted from my shoulder just being away from the ex, being away from the family, and not being in such a hustle and bustle place. Don't get me wrong, Boston is great, but I am just done.
I'd get behind in some bills, but I'd make my child support, car insurance and car payment and go from there. I'm seriously considering this. I miss it out there. I lived in Idaho and visited Washington and CA, and I miss the slow casual pace of life I experienced.
Life is so fucking black when it's not white.
I may up and move out west. I can't handle all of this. So much bullshit all at once, and I don't feel like dealing with it. I would have such a weight lifted from my shoulder just being away from the ex, being away from the family, and not being in such a hustle and bustle place. Don't get me wrong, Boston is great, but I am just done.
I'd get behind in some bills, but I'd make my child support, car insurance and car payment and go from there. I'm seriously considering this. I miss it out there. I lived in Idaho and visited Washington and CA, and I miss the slow casual pace of life I experienced.
Life is so fucking black when it's not white.
user092840:
you still alive?! 
xhavokx:
im sorry! good luck with everything!