Normally, I'd think I came off too harsh in that last post and try to backpedal and pretend I didn't mean any of it.
But I did, and I still do, so I won't.
Ain't nothin' but a party, y'all
So tonight I went to an apartment warming party for a co-worker and his boyfriend (I walked from where I live in Evanston to where they live near the Jarvis "L" stop, so I got my exercise for the day). My former nerd crush of the past few months left early (bummer, she's still funny and nice to look at), but I still had a good time. I stayed longer than I planned because my co-worker is actually a lot more fun when he's had a few glasses of wine, and my other co-worker and her husband are really funny. I'm jealous of the apartment, though. I also found out why a manager at my job got fired. It's a doozy, but I won't post it here.
I realize the only way I'll ever get what I want is to sell several novels. Then, I can afford to quit my job and travel the world with my gf and our cat. Well, ok, we'd just visit and keep the cat at home with a cat-sitter. But working a 9 to 5 job just ensures that I'll always be pushing that boulder up the hill.
Allusions to Sisyphus aside, I don't want to be 50 and still sitting in a cubicle, no matter how cool the job is. I also understand why everyone thinks I'm so kickass at my job. I've found that one of my counterparts actually would go to movies on her lunchbreak and come back really late.
Yeah...uh....now checking out comicbookresources.com doesn't seem quite so bad.
That pretending I don't find women attractive just because I have a girlfriend? It's stupid. Especially stupid when you consider I'm blogging on a PORN SITE. Naked women galore!
I just tend to do shit like that. Try to conform to some sort of bizarre, insane standard no human being ever could. I do this KNOWING that I am flawed and imperfect and irrational at times.
I'm learning to not fall on my sword so much. I'm working on a powerpoint/excel project for The Big Boss of my division and he's really happy with what I'm doing...especially since he doesn't have to do it....but I had to fight the urge to say to him "look, I can't hack this...I'm not good with financial statistics and numbers."
But it was never about that. Once I figured it out, I had these breakthroughs and brainstorms and generally just kicked all kinds of ass. I have this tendency to think that if I don't do something perfectly, then it must not be doable, by me. I'm past that now, though.
I found a comic book club that meets in the city not far from Horseshoe! How weird is THAT?
Man, I post too much after I've had booze.
See you guys tomorrow night...whoever decides to show up.
***Sunday night/Monday morning edit***
Am I the only one who notices how many of the new SGs look a little...underfed? I have no problem with skinny women...I just like variety and tend to prefer a woman with meat on her bones. Skinny is one thing. Being so damn small I think I'm looking at kiddie porn is another.
Wtf?
But I did, and I still do, so I won't.
Ain't nothin' but a party, y'all
So tonight I went to an apartment warming party for a co-worker and his boyfriend (I walked from where I live in Evanston to where they live near the Jarvis "L" stop, so I got my exercise for the day). My former nerd crush of the past few months left early (bummer, she's still funny and nice to look at), but I still had a good time. I stayed longer than I planned because my co-worker is actually a lot more fun when he's had a few glasses of wine, and my other co-worker and her husband are really funny. I'm jealous of the apartment, though. I also found out why a manager at my job got fired. It's a doozy, but I won't post it here.
I realize the only way I'll ever get what I want is to sell several novels. Then, I can afford to quit my job and travel the world with my gf and our cat. Well, ok, we'd just visit and keep the cat at home with a cat-sitter. But working a 9 to 5 job just ensures that I'll always be pushing that boulder up the hill.
Allusions to Sisyphus aside, I don't want to be 50 and still sitting in a cubicle, no matter how cool the job is. I also understand why everyone thinks I'm so kickass at my job. I've found that one of my counterparts actually would go to movies on her lunchbreak and come back really late.
Yeah...uh....now checking out comicbookresources.com doesn't seem quite so bad.
That pretending I don't find women attractive just because I have a girlfriend? It's stupid. Especially stupid when you consider I'm blogging on a PORN SITE. Naked women galore!
I just tend to do shit like that. Try to conform to some sort of bizarre, insane standard no human being ever could. I do this KNOWING that I am flawed and imperfect and irrational at times.
I'm learning to not fall on my sword so much. I'm working on a powerpoint/excel project for The Big Boss of my division and he's really happy with what I'm doing...especially since he doesn't have to do it....but I had to fight the urge to say to him "look, I can't hack this...I'm not good with financial statistics and numbers."
But it was never about that. Once I figured it out, I had these breakthroughs and brainstorms and generally just kicked all kinds of ass. I have this tendency to think that if I don't do something perfectly, then it must not be doable, by me. I'm past that now, though.
I found a comic book club that meets in the city not far from Horseshoe! How weird is THAT?
Man, I post too much after I've had booze.
See you guys tomorrow night...whoever decides to show up.
***Sunday night/Monday morning edit***
Am I the only one who notices how many of the new SGs look a little...underfed? I have no problem with skinny women...I just like variety and tend to prefer a woman with meat on her bones. Skinny is one thing. Being so damn small I think I'm looking at kiddie porn is another.
Wtf?
Many of the girls that seem to be coming up as of late do look like they could use a sandwich, or 5