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The Good
So this is some good news. My father's health is getting better. He seems to have more energy than he use to and is in a way better mood. Though he still watches Seahawks games and gets pissed off. Some things will never change. I also have been playing a lot of guitar lately. Its been awhile but I'm getting back to where I used to be. I forgot how much of a stress reliever it was. My work will get better. I think a career change might be in order. One day I will find what I'm looking for. *damn you Bono*

The Bad
Well as my father's health gets better, my health is deteriorating. I don't feel healthy like I used to. I cough a lot, stomach aches, dizziness, and most of all I've been a little depressed. I still deal with a woman who is in love with me. The guilt of breaking up with her piles on everyday. I told her I'm dealing with my own broken heart. She doesn't understand what I mean. Its not what a woman has done, its what I've done to myself. The way I process pain. I've torn myself to shreds. I just want to touch someone without commitment, without devotion, without love. So I say goodbye to women for now. It is not fair to use them, and there is no need to hurt more than myself. Though I still love all the women I've met. No matter how many times my heart gets broken, I will never stop.

The silly
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OK, hopefully my outlook will change but for now I've have some growing up to do. I might not be around as much in the future but I'll try to comment as much as possible since I still love reading your journals.
I need some Mitch Hedburg and a bottle of wine tonight.

"I made $3,000 opening for the Neville Brothers, and they paid me in cash. That was a bad situation, because I bought ridiculous stuff. I bought a snake bite emergency kit. Then I said to my friends, "Don't even worry about snakes anymore". My friend stepped on a worm, and I said, "Lay down!"