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It was mid April when I took her up there. The view along the Chuckunut drive this time of year was always graced with spectacular sunsets. The clouds would shine behind Mt. Constitution. It's a view everyone should see once. She had never seen it so I knew we had to go. I remember sitting on that rock beside her watching the sun go down. I really couldn't believe she was here. It was only a few months ago the first time I saw her. It was first day orientation and among a crowd of at least 300 students, I noticed her. She had long black hair, brown eyes and a gorgeous smile. She didn't noticed me. Months later we met at a party and talk for an hour out on the balcony. In spite of my drunkeness, I manage to navigate my way through an intelligent converation and asked her out. And now here we are, together, on the shoreline watching another day come to a close. I remember holding her and how good it felt kissing her. I thought about all the other girls and how its led me to this moment. I've been waiting for her. Of course, I didn't let her know how giddy I was on the inside. You gotta play it cool right? I couldn't have played it any cooler. She was melting in my hands. I am a cynical person but that night felt like love. It felt free. It was also one of the last nights we would spend together. She came to me, saying that this felt to good to be true. She has felt this way before and it didn't work out. She became afraid and she left. I didn't say anything but "I understand" and "I'll always be here for you". What a bunch of bullshit. I wanted her more than I ever could express. I let her go. I have never been in love but that night I was close. I heard she's married now. She must have overcomed her fears and found someone. Good for her, she deserves it. For me, there have been many girls since but none have ever measured up to her. I guess I could look at the from the point that maybe someone even more amazing will come along and I'll get that feeling again. But something tells me that was it. The road is still long and I have nowhere to rest. But that night is forever ingrained in my mind. And it does give me comfort now when I need it the most.