hypoxian

I give up. I've had two journal entries erased right before I hit save entry. They were both long, deep and really expressive of how lonely I feel right now. I'm also very sick and just gulped down a 5 shot Nyquil cocktail. Seriously, I've just been doing a lot of thinking about myself and realize that I need someone in my life. I haven't had a steady girlfriend since October. And I haven't had sex since December (Nyquil=truth syrum). My friend is getting married to a great girl. I'm happy for him but it makes me feel regret that I don't have someone. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather be alone than in relationship with someone who I can't stand. But I've lacked chemistry with a girl for a long time and its getting fucking frustrating.

My friends list got a lot smaller lately. I must have pissed people off about something. Oh well, can't keep em all happy.

I really don't feel like sleeping tonight. I think I'm going to pull a Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and see if I can't conjure up some visions of reptiles, devils and bats! Its a good thing I don't drink.

bye