hypnoticevil

well......haha..i didnt get my tatty machine back this weekend....i had like a whole uhhh...i dont know what to call it...like sittig back and looking at my life and myself for a momnet kinda thing happen to me and it was heavy...so when i went to get my machine....my buddy and i just sat around smoking pot and talking and not actually acoplishing anything cuz we were too stoned.....true story..haha
i realized alot of things though...like that i was doing that were a result of my situation for the past few years that i was acting like cetain ways that were fucked up because i was used to harsher enviroments and people and stuff.....
so now im going to make a serious effort to basically calm the fuck down..like still have fun....but not maybe...as aggressively...cuz i dont need to be aggressive anymore...im stable now pretty much....and as fucked up as it sounds...im ready to let go of my past for the first time and move on to a new life....ive been holding on too long to my old habits and lifestyle...and chris you fucking rock for helping me realize exactly where i am and shit.....
whew....that was heavy......im scaring myself now i think...or not...maybe a little...alittle to much emo there for me *cries stars* ..haha....j/k
fuck im stoned......yeah..i dont usually smoke weed....crackers batman...hahahaha