hyndrix

Life is ridiculously hectic right now! I'm not going to Ohio, but he is trying to make it back down here. My boyfriend and his uncle were going to pick me up on Friday, but there are just so many reasons why I can't leave right now, like my insurance and my anti anxiety medications. My doctor has me on Pristiq and Klonopin. I have been on other anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medications before, but NONE have ever had worse withdrawal symptoms than Pristiq. I get these weird "brain zaps" (at least that's what they call them online, it feels more like your ghost is trying to jump out of your body, haha!) and they feel terrible. So anyway, since I can't navigate from here for now, and probably for a while, he is trying to come here. I am really hoping his uncle will still be willing to make the trip, even though there have been some changes. I'm super nervous he'll say no. It sucks that my boyfriend doesn't have a car.

I have cosmetology state board theoretical exams in two weeks. I am SO nervous. I did well in school because I worked so hard and kept a 4.0 average because I studied very hard, but somehow that's not very reassuring to me at the moment. I am eager to start studying, but I know if I start now, there is no way I'm going to be able to retain that info for two weeks. I'm one of those people that HAS to cram. It's ridiculous.