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Okay so Wade's surgery went fine. It was actually outpatient surgery, which meant that after the dope wore off and they made sure he was all good after the procedure, he was free to go. He sounded fine on the phone, just a little groggy from the dope, but we're both pretty positive that this is going to be okay now. I can't help but still worry a bit, but you know how that is. Hopefully I'll be seeing him soon. I like the visual reassurance that things are fine, haha.

My ex boyfriend-turned-best friend, Matthew, is leaving back for Ohio tomorrow. It's just much too hard for us to live under the same roof when I am the type of person who requires a lot of physical and emotional space, and he is the exact opposite. It's hard to get along knowing he still has feelings for me, and while I'll always love him as my friend, I just don't think our relationship ever was what I thought it was. I think a distance apart will do us some good and help us remember that we do appreciate each other, not only as human beings, but as friends.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't upset that he was leaving, but I really feel like this is the right thing to do at the moment.

Crazy how chaotic my life has been in just a short few days. It happened in an instant too. I've always been a survivor, even if it seemed like I was a lot less at times, but I know I am strong somewhere. So through all of this I keep reminding myself of who I am and remember how I cope with things.

Advice?
Throw yourself into impulsive situations, no matter the outcome - good or bad. Regret nothing as there are always valuable lessons to be learned in all trials and tribulations in life, and to admit regret is admitting failure to learn from your past. And of course the cliche - what doesn't kill you makes you a fucking BEAST!